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I'm unsure of what exactly is expected of me here. Not much else to say than what I briefly answered already. I'm lonely, I have a hard time relating to and caring about people, I'm probably autistic, I consider myself inferior to every other person and act like it and receive nothing but basic respect because of it. I'm ugly and completely boring on the inside, so I'm lonely romantically aswell. as far as I know I've been depressed for atleast 15 years. Every disorder impacts the other which keeps me trapped in a shitty life, its a dark cycle. I feel like ill never be a normal human and ill never be worthy of respect or love, and that last part is a self fulfilling prophecy since I constantly worry about how little people respect me, so I can't gain any self respect or any other respect.

I've usually just played video games throughout my life in my spare time. This has impacted me extremely negatively in my opinion. Parents should be extremely careful in raising iPad babies, and should put extreme effort into making sure their kids don't spend all their time playing games. Now I barely enjoy games but I'm addicted to gaming/the internet/ parasocial relationships. When I'm off work I sit on my computer to pass the time before I need to work again.

Not saying video games causes all problems, but rather that my problems led me to playing games (IM ASSUMING HERE) and gaming is an easy escape, which can entrap you very easily aswell. making life worse in the long run.