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I live in a Muslim Shiaa household however I am a nonbeliever and I follow Buddhism.

As a Buddhist terms seem constricting since I believe in nonpermenance. Everything is ever changing. However, I am diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and I don't mind being referred to as mentally ill.

Being borderline makes me an extremely emotional person. It effects my interpersonal relationships since I view everything in extremes. This "black and white" thinking makes it hard for me to find moderation in my daily action or my opinions about people. I am also impulsive and tend to do actions that may harm me without thinking. Like crossing road while cars are passing by just because I'm impatient or drinking alcohol or spending all my money on silly stuff or binge eating. And many other issues associated with this disorder.

What I am currently suffering from is medication withdrawal side effects. I had been taking Sertraline for two years and I had underwent CBT and DBT therapy so I felt ready to finally stop it. However, no matter how ready I felt nothing prepares me to severe dizziness and nausea that I felt as well as mental breakdown. However, I recall all that I learned from my DBT group therapy and it helps me to calm down and regain control of the situation. It takes time but I will never give up.

I have many things I like to do for fun. I love writing, listening to music, walking in nature, meditating, painting, hanging out with my boyfriend and my social circle, helping people out, and dancing. No this doesn't impact me negatively in any way.

The only thing I like that I can't openly do in my home is practicing Buddhism.